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yakeen hai mujhe

dil ka aiyeena jhoota nhi hai

kya hua??

agar koi mere aas pass bhi hai

bas ek naya chehra hi to hai

jab ise jaan ne ki,pehchhan ne ki koi shart nhi hai

to phir??itni halchal man mein kyu hai??

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janti hun

vo ajnabi bhi nhi hai

kya hua??

agar vo pal pal badal raha hai

aur mein pal pal ulajh rahi hun

jab baat haar ya jeet ki nhi hai

to phir??ye behaal si haalat kyu hai??

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mana yaad mujhe

uski har mulakaat hai

kya hua??

agar kahin mein khush bhi hun

itna kuch soch bhi rahi hun

jab ye sab kuch khass nhi hai

to phir??ye itni kashish kyu hai??

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jab shruaat kisi ne ki hi nhi hai

to mein khatam kaise sab kuch kar dun

kya hua??

agar kisi ne kuch kaha nhi

jab hum in baaton se anjaan nhi hai

to phir??ye bekaar ki nazakat kyu hai??

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ho sakta hai

sach kuch aur hi ho

aur ye mera ek sapna hi ho

kya hua??

agar mein neend se jaagna nhi chhahti

bharm aur sach ke beech

tujhe aur khud ko door dekhna nhi chhahti

jab kahin tujh mein kho nhi rahi hun

to phir??ye ajeeb sa ehsaas kyu hai??

(ahh!!thoda sa ..i swear bas thoda sa romantic hone ki koshish ki hai maine zada to ho hi nhi sakti..i kno vese is kaam mein kafi bekaar hun but phir bhi try kiya hai...plz spare me for dis)

Khamosh khaalipan

Soiee si raat hai

har jagah sanata bhi hai.

theek se kuch dikh nhi raha,

bas kuch roshni taaro se hai.

par mein,

kise dekh rahi hun??

kise sun rahi hun??

kis se baatein kar rahi hun??

ye kis ki aawaz hai??

ye kaun jawab de raha hai??

dheere dheere mera mizaz kyu badal raha hai??

man ke shor se,

ab koi shikva nhi

shikayat nhi

meri soch ka,

ab koi imtihaan nhi

Is khaalipan se

ab kahin bhi naraz nhi

lagta hai jese aaj hi theek se milli hun is se

iski gehrayi ko aaj hi smjha hai

iski ehmiyat ko aaj hi pehchana hai

iski sab kuch sanjo kar rakhne ki adat ko aaj hi mana hai

iski bahut kuch lene ki baat ko hi nhi

bahut kuch dene ke ehsaas ko bhi jaana hai

ise kuch khone ka dar nhi

bas bahut kuch pane ki chhah hai

ise nayi baat se koi jalan nhi

bas purana yaad rakhne ka shuak hai

ye kisi aur ki khushi se kyu gila kare??

jab khud ka udsaai se dostana hai

ye kisi aur ko kyu galat kahe??

jab khud ka ilzaamo se rishta purana hai

kya kahun aur??

kaise likhun iska fasana??

ki koi to iski tareef kar de

kisi aur ka to pta nhi,par

bas ab to iski nayi paribhasha se

khud ka parichay mujhe karvana hai

("Empty vessels make most noise" aisa hi kehte hai log aur mante bhi hai,kal tak mein bhi yahi sochti thi par aaj nhi kal raat mujhe ek nayi definition milli..is tarah badal jayega khalipan ka matalb socha nhi tha)

Aaj kaise bhi.....

kab se koshish kar rahi hun

kab se khud ko dhund rahi hun

na jane kab ??kaise ??kahan kho gayi hun

pheli bar dil aur dimaag saath hai

himaat bhi aaj hi ki hai maine

aaj kasie bhi

is jhoote nakab ko hatana hai

khud ko khud se milvana hai

itna aitebaar mujh par hi kyu

itne sawal mujh se hi kyu

koi aaj mujhe rok nhi sakta

sawal aaj kisi aur ki umeedo ka nhi

baat mere vazud ki hai

aaj kasie bhi

nayi subah ko hi nhi

apne ek naye aks ko bhi dhund kar lana hai

janti hun

swarthi ban rahi hun

bandhano ko tod rahi hun,par

kisi ko sawal jawab karne ka hak nhi

mein,kyu kisi ke baarein mein sochun

dar kis baat ka hai

aaj kasie bhi

sirf apni hi baat karni hai

kisi aur ka naam nhi

kahin se khud ki hi pehchhan ko lekar aana hai

(hmm wel ye sab kuch likha to abhi half n hr phele hai but i think lagta hai na jane kitne time phele likha hai ye sab ya kab se sawal hain man mein)